Tuesday, December 2, 2008

It's my birthday

and I'll be in a good mood if I want to.

Maybe it's the time of year. Maybe it's the wise words I have been reading from some amazing women. Maybe I hit 27 and was instantly hit with wisdom. But somehow, and I'm not going to question the source, I'm a lot more at peace with the whole TTC process. I'm not more optimistic, I'm not more confident, but I'm more accepting of the uphill battle that I'm currently fighting.

I've gone back to GP, realizing that closing myself off hasn't done anything but make me brood alone. I'm looking forward to 2009, and trying to not think of it in terms of if or if not I'll be pregnant. Until that day comes, I still need to live my life.

I wish I had some eloquent song lyrics, or poem stanza, or prayer that expressed the randomness in my head, but alas, you'll just have to trust me. :)


Shannon said...

Awww, Mel! Happy Birthday! I hope its a great one!

Im glad you have found some peace. Its amazing to have some comfort and I believe that alot of that comes from knowing YOU CAN DO THIS. Its not an easy journey, but it will be worth it. (((Hugs)))

Bee said...

Happy birthday, Mel! I'm glad you came back to GP. We missed you.

Lindsay said...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEL!!!! So exciting! I hope you have a wonderful day.

I'm happy your more at peace with the TTC. Its a good place to be.