Thursday, November 13, 2008

Another day...

another flat temp. Seriously?

I was so sure I was going to O yesterday or the day prior. Steady headaches, steady O pains...why is that translating into only steady temps?

I know it could be today. Or tomorrow. Or a day in the early 20s like many other cycles. Or a random day in the 40s. Or never. But I really thought I was starting to figure it out. I had been searching for some sort of signal that I could take advantage of, and now it seems that I may have been off base.

For some reason I feel especially upset about this because I got DH involved. Before, I was in charge of the chart and the timing and because I didn't want to put undue pressure on him or make it seem like I only wanted him for his baby-making ability, I wouldn't really say anything once I knew I had O'ed. And I never warned him pre-O because I never knew when it was coming! But this cycle we both thought we were clued in and made a solid attempt. Not only was it off, it seems, but I hated how it changed sex. Even though we were joking about it, it was obvious that on those occasions that we were doing it for a baby and not for love. Something was lost. I really don't want to have to put him in that place again this cycle, let alone the others potentially down the line.

You never know...I could be O'ing right now and my temp tomorrow could be through the roof. But I've officially crossed the line from optimism to pessimism. Stupid, fugly line.


Mary said...

Keep your hopes up hun! It'll happen for you, I know it!

Shannon said...

Ugh, I would be mad, too! But I do think its a good sign that you still have the O pains, maybe its just an "extra strong" O! Hang in there :)